Virtual Coffee
Tuesday, October 5, 2010 at 11:30AM 
...umm...is this Tuesday?...'cause it sure feels a lot like Monday to me, actually, it feels like yesterday never ended...hmm...but of course it is Tuesday, 'cause I checked up on Amy, and I realized that I was about to miss our coffee date, and I really look forward to getting together every week. :)
So...I made it, but I'm not much in the mood for talking today. I hope you have a lot to tell me, 'cause I AM in the mood for listening...
I've been really melancholy lately. I guess it's the weather... I've been thinking a lot about the past (which is never a good thing), and dreaming about the future (which is also not a good thing), 'cause I need to live in the now!...but I'm not really liking the NOW too much...(isn't that a terrible thing to say?)
It probably didn't help much that I pulled out the big bin of old pictures from the closet this morning, and I'm sorry, but if we were really meeting for coffee today, I might want to show them all to you...
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I really miss the days when my girls were little, and we were a family, and my life made sense. I know that we ARE still a family...just a broken one...and I hate that. I know I have a lot to be thankful for...but, sometimes it's just hard to see through all of this...
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...and all of the other stuff piled on top of that.
Griffin ran away from me at the school the other day, and after I caught him, and we were walking back the other way, a woman passed us, smiling, she said, "I remember those days."
Those days...those days...I remember those days too...and now these days are my those days, just like they are for all of us. Sometimes it's hard to see through all of that, and I kept thinking...will I really miss them? Really? And I know that I will...'cause I remember thinking these exact thoughts seven or so years ago...and this bin full of pictures confirms that "yes", I will miss them...a lot.
Thanks for having coffee with me today. I guess I had a little bit more to say than I thought. :)
And thanks for sharing this space with me, 'cause someday you will be part of my those days, and I will miss you too.
Quote of the day - The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. - Unknown
Reader Comments (6)
Hugs.
Glad I came by for some coffee. Hope your "those" days take a break for a while.
Oh honey... sending you some hugs tonight. I think you will miss them... every moment has a silver lining, you know?
I loved seeing your old pictures...
It is so hard to live in the moment...especially when the moment seems difficult. Wishing you peace and joy in today. thanks for the coffee. :)
happy to listen and to talk. thanks for stopping by. cheers to new friends!
abby
If I came to your house for coffee, I would gladly look at your bin of pictures, and possibly bring along my own bin, and we could cry together. ;) And then we'd probably start laughing at ourselves, and we'd feel way better afterwards. ((((hugs)))) to you.
It is hard to live in the moment... I struggle with that too...... just focusing on the here and the now.....
I was surfing blogland and someone had a quote that seemed to help them. It went something like: Tomorrow, Today is Yesterday. I can't remember where I read it exactly, but I think it helps to remind us just how fast time zooms by!
Hang in there!